Am bored.... of everything..... bingo!
Actually thats our favorite word... mine and my best friend's..... bingo!
Why am I talking this stuff here? I have nothing better to do.... And would rather do this than try and sleep.....
Now am actually sleepy.... but not yet ready to hit the sack.... kind of some nervous tension.... wonder why.... wonder whether I will ever have the kind of peace that people who meditate regularly claim to experience.....
Actually, I have tried... meditating.... keeping quiet and gazing into nothingness..... but it didn't work..... nothing did ..... I mean I always have this inner restlessness that is real frustrating...
But it keeps me going....
I love to keep talking.... But when I do say what I want to say.. people look at me like am crazy....
I always was a queer kind of person..... maybe i can call myself abstract....
Sometime..... I realized that the only person who can put up with me is myself.... and so I started thinking too much and talking lesser.....
This way, I could explore a lot more than I could ever have done had I been interacting with someone else.....
But, someday, I am sure I will meet that someone with whom I can talk and yap and cry and laugh and be myself..... and take some of the inner tenseness out of me......
It could be anyone.... male female.... old young...whatever...whomever....
Till then I keep myself company.... and smile for everyone else......
