A start and an unseen end

Me becoming blog-o-maniac by my standards...... Wonder why I get these huge urges to blog... to sound off.... to pen down...... to type out long and short, crazy and creative (ugh!) and sick and sensitive stuff......

It started this way..... I was messaging people crazy stuff.... like why God needn't exist... rather proof as to why He (She) didn't exist.... and all the while... somewhere in the back of my crazy brain I was doodling with the idea that maybe if I got to rant off on this I could get clearer stuff into my brain and maybe at the end of it go satisfied and calm?? (chances in such cases with me are that I will get some other crazy moby-dick idea and rave on that)

Anyway, am taking the chance....

Infinite mystery..... Eternal Power...... Infinite Calm..... Eternal Kindness.....
God.....
Gods....
Him and Her......
Them.....

In case you think am mad.... I know it... so lets get to thinking something new....

I was messaging my two great friends.... Girl and Guy (names withheld due to ..... my want to with hold it :P)

"I wanted to ask God why He is so cruel..... Before I remembered that He doesn't exist..."

I waited for them to reply...
Sometime passed.....
Then he replied..... "Umm... you are right..... God is actually only the positiveness inside a person .... that whenever we want to reach Him.... we call on the positiveness....."

(Actually these weren't the same words.... yet the meaning remains........)

After that what we messaged didn't strike me...... I was completely engulfed in a long lost memory.........

Almost the same words.... but exactly the same meaning......
Years ago..... Someone I knew.... But didn't...

"There is no one called God..... When we work hard and believe in our dreams, goals, aspirations..... then we will get what we want......"

Snob! I thought then.... but a cute one....

Now, I cant agree more.......