Am bored.... of everything..... bingo!
Actually thats our favorite word... mine and my best friend's..... bingo!
Why am I talking this stuff here? I have nothing better to do.... And would rather do this than try and sleep.....
Now am actually sleepy.... but not yet ready to hit the sack.... kind of some nervous tension.... wonder why.... wonder whether I will ever have the kind of peace that people who meditate regularly claim to experience.....
Actually, I have tried... meditating.... keeping quiet and gazing into nothingness..... but it didn't work..... nothing did ..... I mean I always have this inner restlessness that is real frustrating...
But it keeps me going....
I love to keep talking.... But when I do say what I want to say.. people look at me like am crazy....
I always was a queer kind of person..... maybe i can call myself abstract....
Sometime..... I realized that the only person who can put up with me is myself.... and so I started thinking too much and talking lesser.....
This way, I could explore a lot more than I could ever have done had I been interacting with someone else.....
But, someday, I am sure I will meet that someone with whom I can talk and yap and cry and laugh and be myself..... and take some of the inner tenseness out of me......
It could be anyone.... male female.... old young...whatever...whomever....
Till then I keep myself company.... and smile for everyone else......
4 comments:
hahaaa. i see now abstract eh. well it is true u think a lot. actually u deep fry everything. cant change that for now. and meditation is not keeping quiet and gazing. u have to close ur eyes, and think. not about what u have been thiking of all these days(not abt god either)but about happiness and only that without mediating. and it takes time. and u are not thinking actually. i think u it's more like u are talking to a form(which may not be u). lets just hope the form materializes soon. :)
thnku! :P
babe..................................................
you will meet one one day..........
From someone who thought too much:- Try to think less!Meditation is neither about focussing on one thought, nor closing your eyes and thinking of God or something holy; Meditation is all about - trying not to think about anything (which is a near impossibility). In true meditation one crosses the boundary of the mind and goes beyond. What is the barrier ? A thinking mind is the barrier. Once a westerner was talking to Bhagwan Ramana and said in ref. to someone "he is a great thinker" and Ramana quipped, "what is so great about a thinker? He is great who does not think absolutely; and not the one who thinks too much" Well, I realised this after too long and too late in life. I wish you do it much faster.........
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